lilemogal8
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hey . . .
last night i cut . . . to the point where i had 2 put the blade out of reach and text my friend so that my hands were occupied . . .
i had wrote suicide poetry . . . i was gonna die . . .
i cant take this life any more , every day seems harder and harder and i feel like im suffocatin under it all . . .
any words of wisdom greatly apreaciated . . . thanks
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2/Oct/07, 18:12
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squillie
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Re: hey . . .
Hi there
Do you think you've gone down hill since starting back at school? It seems that way, but maybe is coincidental? Do you like school or have you got crap going on there too?
Firstly, try and get rid of all your blades. I know how difficult that is, and I know it's always easy to find something else to self harm with, but if you don't have the blades it's not quite so automatic.
I think i have asked you before, but do you have a school counsellor?
You can't go on and on like this sweetie.
huge hug xxx
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3/Oct/07, 7:50
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Re: hey . . .
Hello there
I am so sorry you are feeling like this.
Is there someone who you could talk to- eg a friend, or a teacher?
I agree with squillie- one thing I found quite helpful was to hide all the knives/ sharp things in the house. Is there somone in your family who you could take into your confidence to help you with this?
I am not sure if you have depression as well as self harming but if you do, have you been to see your GP? They can be very sympathetic and helpful.
Let us know how it goes.
Best wishes,
satsumagirl
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3/Oct/07, 14:22
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lilemogal8
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Re: hey . . .
i know im depressed , and i know im heading for another 'break-down' as they call it , but i cant do anything about , i feel that taking anti-depressants is a route i cant go down , i hate them . . . i wanna b able 2 feel even if it is just pain. . .
i have a learning menthor but ive lost trust in her and i dont think she'll ever regain it .
i dont know if throwing away blades is a gd idea . . . theres only me and my parents at home , i hide my cutting from them , i wear wristbands and braclets and cut places i know they wont see . . .
my mum is a cover teacher at my schl , i cant even have space there , i feel like im goin insane .
the only person who understands is my friend who lives in birmingham - a long way away , but now shes even questionin me . . .
i know im depressed and the ocd tendancies r getting so much worse , ive explained 2 my mum but she doesnt seem 2 care .
what is there left ?
do i take anti-depressants and lose my mind that way ?
do i cut and cry and be depressed ?
or do i get rid of the blades ?
i guess either way ive gotta make a sacrifice and against my usual judgments . . .
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4/Oct/07, 18:03
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Re: hey . . .
thanks 4 ure advice guys , im sorry i dont seem 2 b makin it easy 2 give . . . i really appreaciate it xxx
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4/Oct/07, 18:04
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Re: hey . . .
Go to you GP sweetie and try some different antideps. They don't all have the same effects, and you might find one that just takes the edge off all the crap without actually numbing you. Please think about it.
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7/Oct/07, 7:28
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Re: hey . . .
I second that. Please do go to your GP- I think it would really help. There is nothing wrong with taking anti- depps if they can help you through this time.
Let us know how you get on.
satsumagirl
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7/Oct/07, 12:16
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